Why I Have Bee Silent....

I feel a lot of these things on this list right now. I need to stop take a step back & start taking care of me, I am still on Weight Watchers & doing ok at it but I am not using it to its fullest capacity. I need to put my health & well being at the top of the list for once it hasn't been there ever.

Ok something is going on & it is beginning to drive me crazy. Lately I have had this thing where I am not hungry & when I have to eat nothing sounds good at all. I pretty much eat something because I have to. I am taking this as maybe now being the time to go back to being a vegetarian again, I did it for year a few years ago & I am not sure exactly why I stopped. I may also just stick to eating fish as red meat seems to hurt my stomach.


Do you have this problem & if so what did you do about it ?

What Am I Afraid Of ???

I know this is probably going to sound pretty stupid to a lot of people out there but hey I never said everything I posted here would be smart lol. Every other time I have lost any amount of weight big or little I have always gained it back.

This time around I am not sure if I am more scared of failure or success. I am sure everyone is saying well you should be more scared of failing because if you fail then let's be honest here I am pretty much writing and signing my own death certificate if I don't lose weight.

But can I be the same version of myself at a different weight ? I like who I am personality wise. Can I still have that same personality with a smaller body attached to it. If you take away the weight factor I can say I have been me for the past 32 years. I don't know if I can be a different me in a new body.

I don't know if parts of my personality are they way they are due to my weight or if its just me being me. I have never been one to push people away because of my weight I am a what you see is what you get kind of girl.

Have you noticed that your personality has changed since you lost weight ?

Sick as a dog.

There will be no post due to me having the flu.

Too Old To Play The Game..

This post has nothing to do with weight loss so feel free to skip it if you want. I need to get some stuff off my chest venting is good for the soul right lol. Let me preface this by saying I am 32 yrs old & too d**m old to be playing little kid games. I haven't been a little kid for a long time.

I am tired of the fakes & the phonies. The adults who need to turn every story ever told into something along the lines of  the same thing happen to me. The adults who act out just to get attention. Be you don't try to be anyone else. It may sound corny but honestly if they don't like you for you then they aren't worth your time or friendship. You can't make others like you no matter how hard you try. I have a motto I wasn't placed here on Earth for everyone to like me. You can be the nicest person in the world & help everyone but there is still going to be someone who doesn't like you for whatever reason.

After being in with a group of women online this evening I noticed myself  hating who I have become around some of these women. There is one lady I will call Goober she rocks lol. I think we are very much alike in a lot of ways which is why I think we get along so well. There is a lady I will call Mrs. Country she is the attention seeker. No matter what everything has to come full circle & end off on her. If is doesn't she isn't happy.  Then we have Mrs. South she has changed a lot since I first met her & sadly the change hasn't been for the good. She seems to align herself with people she thinks can make her more popular even if she makes herself look like an idiot while doing so.

I was talking to Goober after & I was telling her I hate who I am becoming. I hate the evil feelings some of the women bring out in me & I need to get away from it. I don't mean evil as in wishing them harm. I mean evil as in I am tired of watching them be fake or phoney. I am too old to play this game of like me, like me look at me, be my friend. I don't have the energy to play that game I didn't play it when I was a kid & I sure as hell am not going to play it now. Also let me be clear about this the ages of all these women even the ones listed is 32 & up so by no means is anyone a naive kid. We are all full gown up women.

The really bad thing is if I distance myself from some of these women I will end up having to distance myself from other women who aren't anything like this. It just so happens that the Drama Queen is pretty much up the butts of some of the non dramatic women.

Any Advice ??

I Want To Try.... Vegetables

I decided to sit down tonight & make a list of Vegetables (that sound interesting or that I have heard of) that I want to try permitting they are sold at one of my grocery stores near me. If you have tried any of these plz let me know what you thought of them & maybe even how you made them. Also if you can think of any other good veggies plz let me know. Thanks

• Acorn Squash
• Artichokes
• Arugula
• Asparagus
• Baby Lima Beans
• Beets
• Bok Choy
• Broccolini
• Broccoli Raab
• Butternut Squash
• Chard
• Chickpeas
• Edamame
• Eggplant
• Garbanzo Beans
• Okra
• Parsnips
• Radish
• Red Cabbage
• Rutabagas
• Snow Peas
• Spaghetti Squash
• Sugar Snap Peas
• Turnip Greens
• Turnips
• Winter Squash
• Yellow Squash

Did I Get Shorter ???

Honestly this is the question I was asking myself the other night when I put on a night shirt I haven't worn in ages. When I put it on I felt it hit my knees. I started looking at myself wondering omg did I shrink ?

So I walked into the bedroom & looked at MG & said I swear I think I shrunk lol. He looked at me like I had two heads or something. So we measured my height & I am still a whopping 5'9. So I didn't lose any height hmm ok maybe my shirt go stretched out but it hasn't been worn.

MG looks at me & says its your stomach now mind you my first instinct was to hit him but I realized what he meant before I did. He was saying that I lost some weight in my stomach area which is why the shirt is actually hitting my knees lol. I have a little bit less stomach to cover.

I honestly don't think I have lost much weight but I can feel a difference in the pain in my back, legs & feet. I don't get winded as fast as I used to. I am getting better at tracking my food. I have prepared all my breakfast & lunches for the rest of the week. The breakfast takes a small bit of cooking which can be done while I am doing other things & lunch is already made just have to grab & go.

I need to look into finding some healthier snacks to eat I am a bit bored with yogurt. I think I am going to pick up some Kashi bars ( have a serious love affair with Kashi lol). I also think maybe adding some granola to my yogurt might shake things up some. What are some of your favorite healthy snacks you like. I need new ideas.